April 9th-15th

Since my incident with Bradshaw... I really hope he has not noticed... Dear gods, why did he hug me? Why is he so nice... I feel like a ridiculous teen having crushes on all the cute boys. So to clear my head, I have left Lubscombe for the week... ALONE.

I headed to Derby. Lord Flemming is buried there. Since he was the seed that sired me, I thought I should at least visit the grave. I sprinkled a bit of powdered mugwort and some dust I filed off the iron nail all around his grave. May he be blessed by whatever he believed in and protected from the dangers of the otherworld.

This time away allowed me to clear my head and squash my crushes. I also had time to contemplate the situation of Lubscombe, the Ashford lack of Will and the meaning of a Barony. I have come to conclude that Barony titles are instated by vote and can be taken away. Basic inheritance of personal savings and income gets passed on. Likely, considering the financial struggles of Lubscombe, Ewan Ashford no longer has anything to pass to Miss Vanessa Ashford. In America, there are no titles as such even though my father retains his title as Lord from his ties with England where he met my mother. If there is no Will, then everything gets passed down or over to wife and children first then the rest of the relatives fight over it. I suppose that is not much different here. People are not fighting over the inheritance so much as they are fighting over the title which can be inherited or secured through marriage. I really hope my father has a Will... and my Mother. In light of all this, I have written my own will and had it notarized here in Derby. I have several copies of it. One is filed here in Derby. One is posted to my family's executor. I have one I am keeping on hand. The other two... once will be given to Vanessa and one to... whoever will not leave her side and thus ensure her safety, Bradshaw or Lucy. I am NOT going to wish this insanity of confusion and chaos on anyone posthumously.

I am now on my way back to Lubscombe. I need to make some amends on my birth father's behalf.... because it is the right thing to do, even if it hurt me and my mother.